Hello, I am back. So we're doing another writing session. We're asking ourselves "what if?" about something important in our memoir.
I wonder what would've happened if I never got addicted when I was seventeen. Junior year is an important year in high school, that's when you take the SATs and start applying to colleges. You have prom and people start driving. You start forming into the friend groups that you'll rent a house for senior week with. All of those memories or opportunities were stripped away from me. Or at least that's what it feels like. What if I never got high? Like at all. I've always wondered what it would be like to be that person who was always sober. The person the other kids thought was weird because she doesn't like to drink or smoke. You know who I'm talking about because for some reason at that age being sober was a crime. What if I just focused on classes and worried about colleges? What if I tried out for a sports team or applied for a club just to have it on my transcript so I could show schools I wasn't lazy? What if I did things a normal high schooler was suppose to do? All these what if's have me fucked up. Sometimes it's better to not think "what if?" and just move on. I didn't have anything bad happen to me, I did it all on my own. I like to keep that experience in my mind and remind myself to not go down that same path but I'm done thinking "what if?", I need to think "what now?"
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Sabatino
4/30/2019 05:48:11 pm
After you shared your empathy letter following the first HIIT set, I appreciated your willingness to share this counter-factual piece as well.
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